XANGA YOU HOOCHIE MOMMA WHAT'S UP?
IT  SURE HAS BEEN A WHILE SINCE THE LAST TIME YOU AND I GOT TOGETHER.
WELL TONIGHT YOU AND I WILL HAVE A RELATIONSHIP, THAT'S RIGHT... WE'LL MAKE SWEET SWEET CYBER LOVE, THEN SUDDENLY I'LL LEAVE AND NOT CALL YOU OR DO ANOTHER ENTRY FOR A WHILE... THEN I'LL BE REALLY HAPPY BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T NEED YOU IN MY LIFE ... WHEN IN REALITY I DO AND MISS YOU TERRIBLY... AND THEN ONE NIGHT LIKE TONIGHT FOR INSTANCE, ILL COME BACK AND WE'LL HANG OUT AND HAVE SWEET CYBER LOVE... I WILL TELL YOU JOKES AND YOU SILLY SALLY YOU, YOU WILL LAUGH AND GIGGLE AND TELL ME YOU MISS LAUGHING AT MY JOKES...
AND THEN I'LL TELL YOU  SAD STORIES ABOUT MY LIFE AND YOU'LL FEEL BAD AND FORGIVE ME FOR LEAVING YOU AND POSSIBLY STARTING ANOTHER BLOG, LET'S SAY WITH MYSPACE.COM, BUT I'LL TELL YOU IT WAS ALL A MISTAKE AND IM BACK FOR GOOD... JUST LIKE A TYPICAL BLOG YOU WILL END UP FORGIVING ME AND THEN I'LL REPEAT THIS CYCLE OVER AND OVER.

SO, QUICK UPDATE.
IT'S ALMOST TIME FOR COLLEGE TO START 2 WEEKS OR SO TO GO, THAT'S PRETTY TIGHT I GUESS BESIDES THE FACT THAT IT COSTS A LOT OF MONEY AND TAKES UP A TON OF TIME...
SUCKS THAT PPL ARE GOING TO GO AWAY... IM GOING TO MISS MY DAWGS...
I ALREADY LOST ONE... NOW MY OTHER LOVER MATT IS LEAVING TOO.
SHOOT I'LL TELL YOU SOMETHING THO KANYE WEST MAY NOT BE ONLY ONE DROPPING OUT OF COLLEGE AND BECOMING A  RAPPER...

KELSEY HATCHER SAID IT BEST MAN... COLLEGE IS PRETTY MUCH WHAT YOU WANT IT TO BE, IT'S UP TO YOU TO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN.

BESIDES THAT AND THE FACT THAT YOU SHOULD NEVER DISCUSS RELIGION AND POLITICS WITH OTHER PPL... ALL IS GOOD.
SOCCER IS ABOUT TO START... I'M STILL PLAYING THE DRUMS... THE FAMILY IS DOING FINE...COLLEGE IS ABOUT TO START...IM SINGLE...THERE'S STILL TIME TO PARTY BEFORE WE GO TO COLLEGE, WHERE MORE PARTYING WILL BE DONE...WE HAVEN'T HAD A TORNADO IN LIKE 2 YEARS...I JUST HAD CHOCOLATE CAKE...AND I HAVE PRETTY DARN COOL FRIENDS...SOME WILL STAY HERE...SOME WILL NOT.


NOW GOING BACK TO OUR RELATIONSHIP XANGA, I MUST SAY THAT I'VE ENJOYED MAKING SWEET SWEET CYBER LOVE TO YOU. YOU ARE THE BEST ONLINE DIARY IN THE WORLD... I REALLY FEEL LIKE WE HAVE A BOND... MAINLY BECAUSE ITS PRETTY MUCH WHAT I SAY ALL THE TIME AND IM NOT GOING TO LIE... IM PRETTY AWESOME... AND EVERYTHING I SAY IS TIGHT.
I'D LIKE TO SAY THAT THIS XANGA IS PRETTY MUCH THE MOST AWESOME ONE YET... AND THAT COMMENTS SHALL BE LEFT OR ELSE I WILL GO BUCK WILD UP IN THIS MOFO.


LOVE SEX BREAK UP MAKE UP LOVE SEX BREAK UP...,
PAULO SILVA



TUESDAY IS THE BIRDBOY'S AKA JHEYSON'S B-DAY.
GIVE HIM SOME WHITE POWDER (COLOMBIA'S FINEST) OR SOME BIRDSEED.
HE WILL LOVE IT!

Dear Xanga and Readers,

I write this letter to express how i feel and have felt emotionally and physically. Right now i honestly don't know what the hell that was supposed to mean, but i'll proceed.
As many of you might know Saturday, June 11th was my 18th Birthday.
It was pretty cool, i never enjoy my Birthdays there's always something going on in my head not letting me focus and enjoy myself, It is annoying.
I was happy, but deep inside there was something not content. It is the first big step into adulthood. I feel ready to take on all the obsticles and achieve all my desired goals in life, but at the same time i long for those childhood days when all that really matters is being happy.
From now on i must keep my ADULTHOOD PANTS on and get on with my life.
One thing is for sure there will be many obsticles and tribulations coming our way, but thinking about it, we have always obsticles and tribulations in our lives since the day we were born.
Lately i have been having more and more deep thoughts about random things.
I do that a lot, i try to find out why certain things are the way they are and why they are such way. It is amazing how complex things are, and how sometimes you can't understand nor explain why things are the way they are.

Saturday i had a really good time at Dustin's Birthday party, yes it was my very own Birthday, but i dont care. My closest friends were there, not everyone but most of them were there and it was Dustin's B-day too so i was happy. It was fun just hanging out and jamming all day. This rain has really been getting on my nerves, but hey GOD knows what he's doing.
I like to look at the rain as a sign of new beggening, because after the rain is gone everyone goes back to their regular daily routine and everything looks so fresh and live.

Later on i that evening i think i had the most fun i had in a while now, we went back to Matt's house and just TALKED and TALKED about everything and everyone, not really everyone, not everyone is worthy of our words and much less our  PRECIOUS TIME.
It is just fun to enjoy these last few days together before we go our own separate ways talking and joking around.

All i know is that: I HAD MANY THINGS WAY TOO EASY, THEREFORE, I DID NOT CARE SO MUCH ABOUT IT AND TOOK IT FOR GRANTED. NOW I THAT I NO LONGER HAVE IT I KNOW THAT I MESSED UP. THERE IS STILL HOPE. IF IT IS MEANT TO HAPPEN IT WILL HAPPEN AGAIN AND IF NOT IT WONT, YOU CANNOT CHANGE DESTINY. 
I JUST WISH I HAD THIS KNOWLEGE THAT I HAVE TODAY IN THE PAST, BUT NOW THAT MAKES NO DIFFERENCE, WHAT MATTERS IS WHAT HAPPENS FROM HERE ON.

COMING SOON- Saturday Night Talks- hosted by me.
This will be something similar to A.A. where you go and meet with other fellow comrades facing difficulties in their lives and where we try to help eachother overcome problems. HAHA IM JOKING...

To all my SAD/NOT DOING OKAY people i will leave you with a deep but meaningful message. GET OVER YOURSELF!haha life goes on.
Im kidding i honestly have been really down, it is just so much happening at the same time it all builds up and its like a bomb it eventually explodes destroying things surrounding it. I LOVE to help others to overcome their problems but have a tough time motivating myself. BUT I'LL BE OK, I ALWAYS MANAGE TO OVERCOME THESE KIND OF THINGS.
I just feel like i need something or someone new to bring fresh air into my life, kinda like the day after the rain.

Thank you all for actually caring about me and remembering my BIRTHDAY you can be sure that it really meant a lot to me just the thought of remembering it and deep deep inside i really appreciate it.
Thank you for everyone who is there for those who need you in times of tribulations.

Take Care of Yourselves and Each Other,
Mr. 18 years of fun.

PS. I would like to THANK all of those who made my 18th Birthday special.
THANK YOU.